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May I?

I am free when I am alone. I feel so free, that I strongly believe I belong to this World. To this Pure World.
When I am with people, constantly, from moment to moment, from day to day... when there is people around me all the time at the same space then something happens. I lose this connection to my freedom. I lose myself. I am distracted from the connection to My Pure World.
This happens because when I am surrounded by people I keep thinking if what I do would be accepted.

”May I do it? Is it ok if I do it? Am I allowed to do it? Would it be accepted if I do it?”
”Am I accepted if I would do it?”
I am ready to share my world with you.
I am not shy to be myself when you watch me. Next time I will also do it watching straight into your eyes enjoying of this connection with you. I will show you what I have grown inside me. And you will enjoy of this harmony.
I will not hide from you my World. I will be myself every moment. I will be open for you with all my depth and sensuality. I want to share my World with you, because by sharing it becomes more than one.

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